Choices

The child I will never know cries out in my dreams
Haunting my mind like a specter
A ghost of a disturbed past filled with regret and anguish

I was trying to fill an already overwhelming void
Hoping that sex would make me whole
Never imagining I would become more broken

And there I stood alone again
But not entirely alone
With an unimaginable choice and a heavy heart

I suffered in isolation, abandoned by the man
Who loved me solely for my anatomy
The taste of my choice is bitter on my tongue still

Life moves on but memories rarely fade
I still envision the person that child would have been
Two souls went adrift with the falling snow