Laughing and Crying

Laughing and crying,
I feel the pain.
Laughing and crying,
Nothing stays the same.

Laughing and crying,
My heart hurts so.
Laughing and crying,
I have nowhere to go.

Laughing and crying,
People look and stare.
Laughing and crying,
Help they do not dare.

Laughing and crying,
I don’t feel the same.
Laughing and crying,
This is not a game.

Laughing and crying,
I make a cut to feel.
Laughing and crying,
It’s so hard to deal.

Laughing and crying,
Blood flows down my arm.
Laughing and crying,
Only I do myself harm.

Laughing and crying,
My voice is now silent.
Laughing and crying,
No longer am I defiant.