Wouldn't ?

I would give it all to just hold everything with in me to feel again, when I build up these walls I didn't think I could brake one by one. I need to realize no mater what it kills me it haunts me, it kills me and I feel the holes brake through I would give it all to just not feel at all to see the stars in the sky with out the feeling of end.  I would hold my breath wishing, hoping, as I feel the shivers run down my body my lungs burning wanting the air needed to breath, but I would give it all to push out all the pain to be set free to see the light everyone else sees in me. Maybe I am asking, maybe im praying, maybe im wishing to be devoured I never knew how precious these painful moments where but I still don't want to brake down theses walls because I know it will kill me, and hunt me more then anything! Wouldn't you give it all to feel something else other then this life?