Your High was My Low

It's hard to imagine what Meth feels like
But, I imagine it feels like you're flying with your feet weighed down
And that's kind of how I felt with you
Because the high started to feel less like ecstasy and more like ice running through my veins
Choking my lungs and making me gag when I should have been saying  
No
No
No
I lived only for the brief hints of pleasure within your chaos
You left me so broken that you were the only person I could go to to get that high again
I was scared of the come down  
not realizing my feet never left the ground to begin with
And I've been laying here lifeless for two years now
You were so fucked up you scrambled my brain into thinking you were best for me
I had no idea
but I should have
If you really loved me you wouldn't have come into my life at all
 
-S.L.T.  1/12/2017