Drunk writing

This is the worst state I could ever imagine being in
Drunk and helpless
Who can help me in this state
My favorite artist sooths me as I wale over the complications of my life
I can’t let go of all that I have held in
Drunken sailor I sit and wish I had more
More support more than just myself
I can barely type these words
How pathetic
I used to think so highly of myself
Now I am barely hangin on sippin on bourbon
Texting everyone I know who has ever cheered me up in the past
I am running out of options
I wanna drink till I pass out
Or at least find myself
Hahahahaha I doubt that will happen
At least lupe can make me feel alive again
Forget life and the attempt of making it work
Its not worth it