Love and the Lost

I gave you more than my heart
I gave you everything and in between
I let you use that to your advantage because you were in need
now I see what a mistake that was

Now I am just trying to take care of myself
yes I am still here
but not in the way either of us desires

after I left I discovered neither one of us could mold each other anymore
that is what we were doing
mold ourselves into the person we thought the other wanted us to be

now I see how toxic that was for everyone in sight
no one could be real
wile no one could survive

Since I left I have been taking care of myself in way I couldn't before
I know you wern't controlling
neither was I
at least not to each other

what are you doing right now
have you smile in the last few days

When I smile I am thinking of the best moments we had together
I think that's what I miss these days
not the you yourself
but the good times we had
will we ever get that back

I miss them
I miss you
I miss the way the curves in your body moved wile you were walking
and I miss those curves in sync with mine when in bed

sometimes I miss those most of all

it's the little things that remind me of you
when I go shopping at our stores
when I see a car that looks like yours
even when I turn the radio on
I get images of you

maybe one day it will work again
maybe it won't
just know
I will always love the thought of you