Reaching (Monster)

Reaching. (Monster).

Theres a monster right in front of me,
He's begging for release,
He wants me to make a decision,
That would prove that I am weak.
He wants me to take him in my hand,
And slide him down my arm.
He says that one is all I need,
Just one more little scar.
He sounds so convincing,
He's just so hard to resist,
So I reach over, pick him up,
And press him to my wrist.
I can almost feel his smile because
He knows that I want more,
He knows that I can't take it,
I'm not as strong as I was before.
He knows every weakness
How to make me give in,
He knows I love the sensation
Of him pressed deep inside my skin.
He knows how to play with my emotions,
How to make me hi,
So the next time I try to stop,
I won't know how to say goodbye.
He's my second of silence,
My moment of peace,
My piece of the truth,
The reality of me.
Though he's cold and he's bloody,
He's perfection when I'm hurt,
He understands everything I say,
And I don't have to say a word.
Just look at him,
And break away,
The world doesn't exist when
He jumps in and saves my day.
Another mark begins to leak,
And suddenly, I stop!
I wonder how I got here,
How I became this lost.
How I suddenly let a blade
Take over my life,
Ive got to let him go,
The razor, the glass, the knife.
I'm making myself crazy,
I know this isn't right,
But everythings so out of hand,
Happiness isn't in sight.
So I need something sharp,
I need something real,
To lean on when I'm lonely,
To let out how I really feel.
I don't care if I get hurt,
And I don't care if I am weak,
There's a monster right in front of me,
And I am going to reach....