Possessed

Dearest, what should I apologize for?
All the lies you've endlessly told?
Should it be how you stole my life's core
When you literally let me die on the floor
 
Perhaps, all the times you've cheated on me
When caught, you'd just rub my face in it (and still do)
When I mourned her alone, that must be the key
No, it has to be when I went through surgery
 
Physical pain for months was not enough for you
You had to be sure I was sick with internal pain too
You were never there for me but had nerve to blame me
Understand, it's you who is unforgiven
 
You weren't to be found, always with a whore  
But you think you should have an apology
Not one card in three years, my heart on the floor
I did everything for you and you just took it all
 
You cry because I've said the truth?
All you've done and you still make demands?
I won't apologize for you, it's uncouth  
You're a cruel sadist still looking to hurt
 
You even took my tragedy looking for sympathy
You were there and you left me to die
You only added every day since with your apathy
How come these are things never told?
 
When I'm gone, you can add more lies to the guise  
You're not a good person, that's the truth
I won't apologize for suddenly getting wise
Your only decency was ever through me  
 
I'm honestly in shock you can still do this
I'll correct my mistake and it'll be over
Will that be apology enough, sent with a final kiss?
No, you'll still want to kick me in my grave
 
All your empty words that never meant a thing
You never stuck to even one  
You only get off on the hurt you bring
 
I'm sorry this is so sloppy and raw
I'm in disbelief you would still do this
But, if only here, the truth will be law
My death is only because of you  
 
 
Honestly, how can you still do this??