Dear Friend

Dear Friend

Where are you my dear lost friend?
It’s been awhile since we’ve communicated, you can’t tell me our friendship has reached its end.
The memories we share will stay with me until the end of time.
Losing you now as my friend would be a crime.

We have been to hell and back together, been each other’s rock when we had nowhere else to turn.
The distance between us now has me concerned.
I still consider you my best friend even though we live on opposite coasts.
The distance seems to have turned you into a ghost.
A simple call would be nice to receive.
You can’t be gone forever, that I refuse to believe.
We have too much history together to simply vanish from each other’s lives.
I swore you would be my best man the day I decide to take a wife.
I miss you my dear lost friend.
I will go down missing you until the end.

You were there when Autumn cheated on me with a close friend of ours.
I know being there damaged you and left you with scars.
I never blamed you for what happened that day.
I know carrying that knowledge with you for the rest of the day still burdens you today.
It’s not your fault she did what she did.
It’s my fault for staying with her afterwards for as long as I did.
I don’t even blame the man and forgive him completely.
Autumn was the one who hurt me deeply.
Not just what she did that day but what she did the following two years.
The damage done to me still lingers, that is clear.
I feel into the darkest of despair and damaged beyond repair.
I now take that damage out on Kayla which isn’t fair.
I fell into a severe depression then and still suffer from it now.
I wish I could overcome it for good but I don’t know how.
I pain I feel every day is incredible and I’m amazed I’m able to wake up and function every day.
I’m amazed I haven’t been defeated yet and had my ashes caste out into a bay.
I know that after two plus years of Hell, I came around to my senses and you were there to have my back.
You were the first person to greet me when I made my exit out of the black.
Thank you for being there for me my dear friend I love you forever for that.
Please come back your absence is hitting me hard in the gut.

You where there for me after my grandpa passed away and I was left in turmoil.
I felt that I should have been the one who was buried underneath the soil.
You picked me up that summer and carried me through a dark time.
Not having you around now after that is a crime.
We spent that entire summer together making amazing memories.
One day you will be the co-star of my documentary.
We went for walks daily and helped out Eric as he went through his own dark time.
The friendship the three of us share should last a lifetime
but now one of us is missing from the equation.
It’s time for you to come back, Eric and I miss you dearly.

I remember the day you called me up and asked me if I wanted to go to Tennessee with you.
You called me up and asked me just out of the blue.
I immediately yes said and I thank you for the invite, the trip was something I truly needed.
I met great new people and got to spend quality time with you my friend.
The trip will live on in my memories until the day I die.
After that we drifted apart I will not lie.
That was the last major thing we ever did together.
Now I can’t seem to find you during bad or fair weather.

Now we run into each other once or twice a year.
Every day I hold out hope that you might appear.
When we do get together it’s like we never missed a step and we are back to being best friends.
Then we depart and lose contact for months until I run into you again.
I try calling you.
I try texting you.
I try messaging you.
All I get is a word or two response or no response at all.

This is not how things should be between us.
We have many topics we need to discuss.
I know nothing of your life out on the west coast.
You have now become a ghost.
I don’t know what happened, why did you drifted away?
I wish I could talk to you and get some answers so I wasn’t stuck in gray.

Eric and I miss you brother where have you gone?
I continue to hold out hope for your return every dawn.
I pray to God that one day you will return, my dear lost friend.
I pray to God that one day you will find peace about whatever is troubling you.
I’m here for you if you ever need me.
I will be here for you until the day I die.
I won’t ever lose faith in you my friend.
I won’t ever turn my back on you.
I’m your friend until the end of time,
please don’t ever forget that.