Confession

I'm looking back remembering      
the thoughts I said to myself, never no one else    
Had someone think I felt concerned, later forgot what they said 
Remembering remarks I made to myself, about someones appearance  or how they dressed  
Always pointing out every flaw    
Trying to make people think I had none  
Wanted to be seen as perfect  
Now I'm going to put my powerful perspective of mine on me    
I'm going to point my finger at myself, point out faults I already know    
Why do I always feel like I have to be in the center of the stage    
Wanting to be the focal point of someone else    
The topic of the conversation    
Not concerned about anyone elses life, only my own    
I've been that way so long, it's going to be hard to change  
I need to start putting other peoples feelings before my own    
Start caring for someone else      
I guess by me asking how a persons feels, can lead you to think I really care    
It's usually me looking for acceptance, approval from someone else    
So I can feel better about myself, hold my head a little higher than everyone else    
Honestly I can say, I've always spoke high of myself    
It always been about me    
Most days not caring about no one else    
The ones who know me best, will tell you I'm toxic    
Truth be told I am    
Feel I cant continue my life    
 I need to start over    
I need to be a better someone, stop living a lie    
Being someone I'm not    
Start recognizing my mistakes, I need to fix thinks broken in my life    
Before trying to make anyone elses better    
I can start by saying what I really feel, instead of what I think they want to hear    
Now I'm living day to day, starting to figure out my own life    
 Maybe soon I'll start to learn to respect myself, being true to me    
Learning how to love first myself, then everyone else    
How can you love anyone, if you don't love yourself    
Ask me who I am tomorrow    
That I'm working on today    
Then I'll tell you who I really am    
     
GBW