Backwards Fairytale

No matter the heart we often set aims blindly on what is inferior,
what can only touch our flesh...

I have done this...

I have felt the need of a warmth to hold my shivering at bay as my heart wandered the isles of love searching for its beloved.

I have tasted of lips that consumed me in their displacement.

Cursed the one before me even as I gave them my wastelands,

even as their hands stroked and groped me in their grasp,

I was somewhere else...
lost in emerald irises
watching you descend further and further from me and I needed to forget...
Wanted for healing...

Wanted to feel the beginning of our ruins all over again.

I wished to feel the tears of love fall too my cheeks as I lay nestled tightly to your chest.

Your rise and fall of heart was the answer to my breaths,

to live was to dissipate without the hold of your arms wrapping me in their blankets.

I was undone reaching for something to drown the sorrow of my loss,

only to call your name in my slumber,

only too search for you where you were furthest from me.

I clawed at the attempts at breaking your untouchable grasp on me,

scarring all that tested the waters,

and I pained for myself alone,
screaming in pain at the sight of sun rising
without the sun too bask me In it's warmth.

I was dead in all aspects of the word,

no soul too care for the missguided plans I tried to make,
But never carried out.

No heart to beat against warmth of another laying aside my flesh,

emotionless I lay staring at the ceiling counting shadows until they too dissipate...

Everything...

all of me dissipates without your closeness.

My depth is you,

as deep as the soul borrows
your name can be heard
echoing in the empty corridors of heart.

I stuck to the walls of my imprisoned spirit awaiting your lips...

Thought they'd never come...

But as I slipped in my breaking,
in my last hope's death,
your hand was found on my cheek..
your heart beat against my cold form.

My head tilted up too find the emerald isles I had all but died too never see again....

and here I go again...

Falling in love all over again...

Please don't wake me if I'm dreaming...

I don't want to feel the loss of you or the breaking

but only the beginning of our ruin as we fall...

Freely...

without remorse for those fallen in our breaking to find us lips pressed loving once more.

Please love me momentarily and always..

Please keep my hands in your pockets and your's in mine never does the bond break hold as it did before...

Once upon a time...