As The Love Dies

Sitting in a lonely room
Encase my body in this tomb
Where candles flicker in the wind
Like memories of where I've been
Scar the mind and peal the flesh
Keeps the pain soft and fresh
Loveless sex to pass the time
Thoughts overdue and past there prime
Meaningless names I forget
Done so much I can't regret
Cold sunshine casts shadows all around
Mindless silence of echoing sounds
Friendships born and friendships die
Never understanding why
Question where and answer how
Wonder who and when is now
Time eluded by the day
Molds me like balls of clay
Bury me within this womb
Where flowers will never bloom

Sitting by my loneliness
Looking back at all of this
It's no wonder why I am
No idea of who I am
Ever changing stays the same
Call to me by any name
Let your sun beat down on me
Pain of love is all I see
Comes to me and rings the bell
Takes my heart straight to hell
Tears apart the velvet sky
To camouflage stars with lies
Does it ever start like this
When will it end in bliss
Wish I never would have met her
I guess I should have known better
Learn from what we can't correct
Shield my heart I must protect
Here I cry with the moon
Where flowers will never bloom

Flowers grow, wither and die
Like time, love passes by
We wait for a sign
But we're just waiting in line
A free hand out, hands out, we take what we can
And when it doesn't last we never understand

Here I sleep all alone
Ears ring like a dial tone
Pick up the receiving end
Let's us please make pretend
We've done all that we could
There's nothing that we should
But wait for time to carry on
When this fairy tales' gone
There are no happy endings, just endings to begin
I'll wait outside while everyone scurries in
Take the doll, push in the pins
I know of all your sins
Secrets we never should have told
Now there's just the past for us to hold
Tomorrow should never be as bad as yesterday
And I still cannot stand to hear the words you say
Like razors in my ears
Turning and twisting the gears
Spinning the walls of my room
Where flowers will never bloom

Sun sets under the black cloak of night
Eyes open to the illuminating light
Only to make a wish that I know will never come true
So I hide my face cause it's all I know how to do
Kill the pain I feel inside
Another failed suicide
Memories of failure left there tracks
Haunting nightmares always come back
Mocking me with thoughts the same
Cutting me like it's just a game
Bury me beneath the dirt
Where the pain will no longer hurt
A one man fornication
My hand took a vacation
The mind went along
And shit went wrong
Hospital beds and medical crew
Asking me what they knew I tried to do
I just jumped the gun a little too soon
Trying to find where flowers will never bloom

Flowers grow, wither and die
Like time, love passes by
We wait for a sign
But we're just waiting in line
A free hand out, hands out, we take what we can
And when it doesn't last we never understand

Time passes we never see
Changes the “I” inside of me
Never were we who we are
Looking back we've gone too far
Overcoming so much more
Pealed me from the core
Left me here so I can die
Kept me alive and my eyes dry
Whisper truths that you deny
All I hear is one big lie
Keep my thoughts within my head
Never hear what I have said
The past grows further away
Always do we wish to stay
The best has gone far behind
Act as if we don't mind
Memories come back and forth
Got me to question whats my worth
Sitting in a lonely room
Where flowers will never bloom

Take away the joy we had
Mix the good and the bad
One color of this sky
Nothing left we can try
What's done is done and over with
Stories told are only myths
What is left for us to feel
When nothing left is for real
Wonder what keeps me here
Holding onto what is dear
This ill tainted memory
Taking control of me
Here I find in misery
All my faults I'm so sorry
Done all I could there's nothing more
Took this love and left me sore
Hide me inside my disguise
As this love slowly dies
Underneath a new born moon
Where flowers will never bloom

Flowers grow, wither and die
Like time, love passes by
We wait for a sign
But we're just waiting in line
A free hand out, hands out, we take what we can
And when it doesn't last we never understand

Seeds to plant into the dirt
Flowers grow and thorns do hurt
These roots dig deeper in
I feel the sting of voodoo pins
Tortured souls are empty now
Like those sacred hollow vows
Meanings are meaningless
I do but not for this
Temptation of jealousy
Surrounds the love with misery
Kicked my ass out of shape
Rebuilt my heart held with tape
Watched the sun fall far below
Saw the leaves dance as wind would blow
Ever changing scenery
Looks all the same to me
Names and faces merge as one
When everyone loses no one's won
Ignis fatuus of my room
Where flowers will never bloom

Sodden eyes see the whole
What is left of what you stole
Three sheets in the wind
Catch me now my only friend
Ineffable words you tell
Lost the light in the well
Darkness illuminates
Like heavens demonic gates
Closed are they for repairs
As if the gods even care
Played our hearts just like a game
Yet it is us who are to blame
We stood side by side
Didn't know that you had lied
Spoke of love, it tore apart
Shoved the pain right in my heart
Smile, laugh, and then you grin
Follow my tears to know where I've been
Sitting in a lonely room
Where flowers will never bloom

Flowers grow, wither and die
Like time, love passes by
We wait for a sign
But we're just waiting in line
A free hand out, hands out, we take what we can
And when it doesn't last we never understand

Sudden bursts of energy
Shivers that come into me
Bring violent obscenities
Disrupt my serenities
Lost in the past of memories
Drown me in the sorrow seas
Where do I go from here
The world is full of what I fear
What is it you want from me
I just need the taste of she
Fill my lips with bliss
Savor your poison kiss
Save your lies for empty books
Wont be your worm on jagged hooks
Drive me out and cast me aside
Within the loneliness I hide
Too afraid of what can be
This is the pain that has made me
Changing in my cocoon
Where flowers will never bloom

Listen to my mawkish thoughts
Spelling words like connect the dots
Though no one will see me cry
As I'm laughing at the sky
Take away this bleeding heart
It's no good once torn apart
Will I ever find again
What was lost will soon begin
Will time ever heal this affliction
Or is that a tall tale of fiction
Burnt to a crisp my dead rose
Planted seeds and nothing grows
Expecting to much of nothing
Time makes us wait for something
But what is left of me so hollow in my shell
Pushing away the love from hell
Left Over Violent Emotions
Four words cause such commotion
Leaves me dancing with the moon
Where flowers will never bloom

Flowers grow, wither and die
Like time, love passes by
We wait for a sign
But we're just waiting in line
A free hand out, hands out, we take what we can
And when it doesn't last we never understand