#relationshipgoals & Say Goodbye To These - Live 16.08.17

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And then she woke up
Head filled with thunder
Heart split a sunder
Prey to the hunter
And she wonders
Why she's here again
He got into her head again
Words are so sweet
Until the sentences end
She knows what this is
But she likes to pretend

That one day
He'll stay
And he'll say
That he loves her
Without a slur
And he'll mean every word
But those words
Will never be heard
And the longer it lasts
The more it chips away at her
Self confidence
And the moment he left
Felt like a bullet to her chest
He left just like all the rest
I said it's probably for the best

I said
Fuck it!
Sometimes
We have to cut
Those emotional ties
In order to survive
And once again
To actually feel alive
Sometimes we need to take
Solace in solitude
And know
This road
We roam
Is long
But you'll make your own home
Yes you'll finally be strong
On your own

But my words
As always
Fell upon her deaf ears
As she wiped away
An ocean of fresh tears
She professed to me all of her fears

She didn't think
She could live here life
Without a him
Right by her side
Defined by a love
That she couldn't find
So she makes another mistake
And lets another man take
What he wants from her
And leaves her a little bit more broken
And that remains
To this day
Even if it goes unspoken
And the next man comes along
She thinks this really could be the one
She becomes consumed by his love
She can't imagine
Another man's touch

And as two became one
The loneliness seemed to subside
The emptiness inside
Was no longer a place
Where her heart would reside
She loved him so much
But that only made him complacent
Controlling
Manipulative
The corner stones of an abusive relationship

She flat out refused
To acknowledge any of his lies
He could do nothing wrong
In her love stained eyes
He cheats on her multiple times
Because she always just lets that shit slide
Deep down it eats away at her
But it's better than being
Alone in this life

And then one night
She finally decided enough was enough
She said fuck this life
It's way too tough
I've given up on fate
No longer believe in love
I no longer believe
In that emotional connection
Eyedea was right
It's little more
Than a chemical reaction

So she closed her eyes
And fell into the night
Let the darkness overtake her
And said goodbye to this life
And as the darkness got darker
She thought about her mother
Would she wonder
What pushed her daughter
To the edge

And then nothing
And then silence
And then nothing
And then peace

And then she woke up
Head filled with thunder
And she started to wonder
Why she could see the sun rise
It hurt her eyes
But it made her realise
Life is probably worth living
It's not a precursor to her suicide

And that was the day
When she finally decided to let go
She said
How can I expect anyone to love me
If I can't even love myself, ya know?
She said
I don't need a player 2 in my life
I'll brave through this dark
And I'll find my own light
It took me some time
But I think I'll be alright
Plus you were right
I massively need to change my taste in men

She said I've come to realise
That sometimes
We have to cut
Those emotional ties
In order to survive
And once again
To actually feel alive
Sometimes we need to take
Solace in solitude
And know
This road
We roam
Is long
But I'll make my own home
Yes I'll finally be strong
On my own

She said
Sometimes
We have to cut
Those emotional ties
In order to survive
And once again
To actually feel alive
Sometimes we need to take
Solace in solitude
And I was like
wait wait wait wait wait
Those were the exact words
That I said to you
And that my little ginger haired friend
Is called plagiarism
And that ain't cool
That ain't cool
At all




Say Goodbye To These

We've got this cat named kitty
And she doesn't care too much for me
Even though I talk to her in Dothraki
And do the things you do
To try and keep a cat healthy
I give her eats
And I buy her treats
And don't go mad when she shits
All over my sheets
And when she tries to kill me
by tripping up my feets
I'm still like
Awwwwww you so sweet

And she looks at me like
Who the fuck are you
Don't you fucking look at me
Now where the fuck is my food
Go to the fridge
Get the pouch
Then deliver food to mouth
And then fuck you I'm out
Imma go and hunt this mouse

And she kinda looks like toothless From how to train your dragon
Sad eyes
That hide
In a little ball of fluff
But she'll rip the shit out of your posters
If you don't give her any attention
Then just like P.O.S
She'll be like fuck your stuff

But I love the shit out of that little kitty
Even though she clearly
Prefers my housemates to me
And although she'll never invite me
to one of her cat parties
At least she's not a fucking dog