Falling

I'm standing, I'm walking, everything's fine I've never felt so secure, why is it when that happens we go looking for something, someone, to fall for?
We just want everything to be ok, but ok's not ok because its only ok.
Need something deeper, something more profound, someone to break up all this plain solid ground.
And there they are, that was quick! Here they come, loaded with looks and lines and times that feel like nothing that's been before.
Suddenly everything is so fresh and new, like every single thing holds a bit more meaning and that old wound in the heart is gently healing and I'm reeling cus he's beautiful I'm reeling cus he's calling cus he cares about my shitty day and I'm falling and I'm falling but it's ok cus he keeps calling and I'm falling and I love it there's no walls or ceilings or even a floor cus I keep falling deeper thinking that maybe he's a keeper!
And now yeah baby I'm the rarest fucking creature, what a catch, what a find, i'm basically blind cus those headlights were so bright they dazzled me but I was already falling so I couldn't even trip but wait...
Sorry can't come over, can't do this anymore, it'll only end in tears think it's best if we leave it, those words are so familiar yet every time I can't believe it, and suddenly it looks like all that time I was flying! I was flying so high and now what..
now I'm falling.
Here I go I'm falling, but this is falling of a different kind, this time there a floor and its hard and i'm hitting it hard and now nobody's calling and I'm sat on the floor in a room so bright and so plain there isn't even any kind of "beautiful pain" there's nothing it's so boring there's just this little gnawing feeling every time someone says "You'll be ok" because that's why i'm afraid, cus "ok"'s not ok, its still, and it's plain, now it's like someone's put walls up, someone's put a floor in, but I'd rather be falling, there's even a door and it's open but I'd rather be falling.
Now I'm standing, I'm walking, but I'd rather be falling.