The Meth Diaries~Frozen In The Ice

Your struggle can be felt in these words Raven and heart aches for you...I will equate the ice into literal terms because this is what I do...you will come to learn this of me...beautiful pieces frozen in ice...interesting wording if looked at that way, literally...the beautiful is there, trapped beneath the surface struggling to be freed...your words and your determination are your fists, punching to break through...with each word and with each minute you stay strong and refrain, the sun brightens and will soften that surface which right now is dark and cold...I say all the time there is no darkness without light, they go hand in hand...the light is there in your desire to succeed and be free of this...keep building that light that is there within you, believe in it, believe in YOU, know you are stronger than any darkness. I will continue following your struggle and lend all support possible...

Xoxo Taryn

what an absolutely beautiful way of seeing things.. I failed today but will continue to pound the ice.. that my beauty may return.. I will continue to write & use my words as fists to combat this.. I hate that I let you all down.. I really want to succeed & not let me down either.. your love is deeply felt in your comment.. I will take the dark with the light.. forgive me for my failure today.. ~Raven

I am freaking HOOKED ON YOUR WRITINGS!!!

thank you for the read & gracious comment.. ~Raven

Raven, my souls screams out for you.  Knowing that the demons are at their strongest while your body is trapped in the physical pangs of withdrawal.  I see a beautiful ice sculpture crushed, the slivers and shards what is left of you right now.  But know your inner strength, the drug is but ice, you are diamond.  Strong and clear and true.  Fight against the darkness, do not let it win.  You are in my thoughts, I am wishing you strength and happiness.

Thank you for the write.

dearest Wolfe I heard your soul in a nightmare & didn't do the drug in my sleep because of you beautiful poets.. I didn't want to fail you.. I messed up in real life sad to say.. I am filled with deep sorrow for this.. I wanted so badly to give you a good report today.. ~Raven

You have my support in your struggles.  Good or bad you fight the battle.  As I said failure is win you stop, not when you have a setback.

thank you dearest Wolfe I won't stop fighting my heart is fillled with relief you don't see me as a failure today.. a setback yes you're right.. I can't beat myself up it won't help beat this problem.. my heart is deeply moved by your continued support.. I will be back with a report when there are better days.. ~Raven

you have to try and separate the two - you are not the drug and the drug is not you, you must have had a priod when you were drug free this proves that you are not the sum of the drug - you are in there somewhere - find her - she will help you :-)))

tartan hugs to give you strength :-))))))

thank you dearest poet for the wise advise.. you beautiful poets have given me pause with your deep love & compassion.. knowing I must face you if I fail like I did today pains me greatly.. I will continue to fight.. ~Raven

I will not judge you if you fail - all you can do is your best and I know that's what you'll do :-)

thank you dearest poet that is a relief to my heart to hear.. ~Raven

I enjoyed the read and the chance to hear someone else explanation and understanding of the battles they fight with their addiction.

thank you I wrote several entries into the meth diaries but finally gave up as it just chronicled my continued failures at quitting..

when I wrote this I just snorted it.. I now smoke and snort it different kind of high with each..

I don't know what i'm going to do when i'm out..

I'm hoping this time I can resist the urge.. wish I had something more of value to say but I don't yet..

Your honesty has value. The time you took to from you day to reply back to me I has value. If you ever need a person to talk to hit me up. I've been able to help several people out and was told by some I saved thier life.

thank you.. you have a caring soul.. you know this is a topic I tried to brush under the carpet here but people know me here and know i'm up all night or posting poems like a demon then for days nothing.. i'm either high or coming down.. you made me face it tonight.. that's a good thing..

well now you know i'm Crimsin too..

I'm known here as Crimsin too i'm just too high to keep them straight tonight.. if you look on my profile page it's listed as my other identity..

It's never good to try and ignore it. I feel all that does is feed your demons more cause you bottle it all up and suffer. Open up get it out vent let the pain go away then it's one less thing weighing you down. But the reality is what people think is irrelevant cause people are always going too judge without knowing the facts no matter if your doing good or bad. Look at me I've been up since 3 this morning but what they don't know is I slept all day. So what your doing is your business and your business only.

thank you dearest R for understanding.. we'll see I might start being real with myself and how I feel about this again.. see but that's the crafty part of this addiction you fool yourself into believing it's a viable lifestyle.. we'll see how painfully honest I can be..