The Close

The end of a chapter the close of a book
No going back no final look

under the carpet covered in dust
hidden forever my angry lust

In the beginning back at the start
I never though this would brake my heart

How can you miss what never began
its impossible but somehow I can

confused to the point that ive lost my mind
I need to run leave this all behind

For you love another very different from me
No matter how I change I will never be ...

I don’t even want what most people do
I just long to be close to you

I don’t want to act like couples or lovers
spending the days/ hours under bed covers

Its deeper then that (for me anyway)
so forever and ever in my heart your stay

I shall leave you alone by your self not with me
Just friends being friends no intimacy

I’m happy with that, that’s how it is
my life’s now real and less of a quiz.