Absorb the pain

how come i cant feel love
am i the one who is ugly
why does he always hit me
who do i remnd you of
why am i the one in the dirt

let me start from the top
he started off loving me then gave pain
he hit me in public and then laughed
he chocked me in front of family

he bruised me to the point i felt nothing
im scared but cant run no where
legs been gone so has my pain
is it me or he just plain evil

why does he call me ugly
why does he fuck others
why does he tie me up and hide me
why does he inflict pain upon me

since i learned to absorb the pain
he just beat me to death and moved
on to the next women who will last longer
was i wrong for absoring the pain

if your looking for me
im buried outside in the backyard
next to the tree where we first met.