The Routine

Sometimes I wake up,
And it feels like a depressing day.
So, I set my mood organ to despair.
I'd rather not have to deal
With any mood swings.
Why feel hope if it will go nowhere?

I take a shower in despair.
I get dressed in despair.
I eat breakfast in despair.
I lock my door in despair.
I live my day in despair.

When I get home
I tune my mood organ to self reflection
As I wind down.

Lastly as I ready for sleep
I set my mood organ to anxious insomnia,
Until around twelve.

At that point
I retire my mood organ,
And sleep.

Sometime I don't know what to feel.
Sometime I just don't know how to feel.

I lay in nothingness.
I drift off in nothingness.
I sleep in nothingness.
I dream in nothingness.
I awake in depression.