maybe

How can I hate this much?
That your face is despisable.
Your voice is nails down a blackboard.

And I ask you-
What did I do to deserve this?
All the pain, the pain,
It makes me want to die: To slit my wrists and let the life pour out.

You had to sleal what was MINE
You STEAL and you LIE

I pretend: as you did- But not as severe
I'm NOT like you
Never will I be your shallow empty shell

I LOVE my friends
You make me doubt- Do they love me?
And guess what
I've run out of places to cut

And vent my anger
ITS YOUR FAULT
That I'm like this.

I'ts a cold mask
obliterating my face
Hiding my emotions

Everytime I fight with those people
it scares me, scares me alf to death that I'm losing them.
Petty things even, like winter, snow.
I nearly weep with worry

This is what you've done to me
You'll never even know
Just carry on with your shallow fucking life
Not a glance in my pathetic direction

You selfish fucking whore
You don't even fucking care

You know what?
I'm trying to forget.
For the sake of my friends and my health
But it's harder each day
Each cut, deep in my flesh
Let's take it one at a time.

Less each day.
And maybe, just maybe,
I could tell you? The harm you've done.
Broken my mind.
Maybe you could change? Out of that shallow hollow shell.
Maybe...we could be friends?