White Nothing

And my life felt nothing greater than      
the space between my skin and the blade pressing firmly against it        
If I could open up        
If I could open up my arms I'd escape        
I've taken hugs and taken drugs        
But thats just tape            
       
If you truly understood my darkness        
I'd be the sun with its eyes closed        
I'd be the star you've been admiring that died light years ago        
I'd be a pearl off heaven's gate fallen into a black hole.       
I'd be so dark  
I'm white nothing        
And my blade,  red....      
       
~Nourish