Eternal Peace

There is nothing here for me.
All whom i loved,taken from me.
So much pain and death,my eyez have seen.
For my own demise,i am a fiend.
Use to think iz life all but a dream within a dream?
Or so it may seem.
What i now seek is an end to all the mental pain.
A mental pain that has been a constant brain drain.
No love i feel.
No compassion i feel.
None of these do i feel.
Use to think all this was a wicked game that the Gods would play on me.
My vision is clear,just my selfishness has me all so groggy.
A living nightmare is all there is.