Dear Mom

Seems like an eternity since you've been gone.
So much has happened.
So many dreams, turned into nightmares.
I know you always wanted the best for me and bobby.
But i guess it wasn't meant to be that way.
We had hoped for a different life.
But times change.
People change.
I'm sorry i let you down.
I'm consumed by chaos.
Consumed by guilt.
Consumed by grief.
May God forgive me.
I dream of those closest to my heart.
Those who have in this world departed.
Family members, Friends from long past.
The ones who have played a big part in my life.
I long for the day when i leave this earth to see them all again.
Day after day i pray to god that i may go ahead on and expire.