when did I become this weak?

Now I know I was wrong,
because I can't be that strong.
I say to others that they are drama queens/kings.
But what's wrong with me I have Become one of those drama queens/kings.
I watch myself make up things that don't belong.
What's come over me when did I become this weak?
What happened to me being so strong?
When did I start lieing to everyone around me?
Was it just to get attention or was it so someone would try to understand me,
or did I do it so I wouldn't get hurt by others anymore,
or was it just so they didn't look down on me?
I don't know and I don't understand anything.
I say I don't want drama but when did I start making it?
I feel so alone what's happening.
I am losing everything.
Friends,family, and even me.
When did I become this weak?