mental infidelity

   
tears of frustration      
fail to fall from my eyes  

jaded & glazed    
i look at the world    
from a place of hard gained knowledge    
there is no more fascination      
that life holds    
     
plenty of distractions yes    
that's always there    
will i or won't i indulge?    
     
knowing i need be grateful      
for the man who loves me    
     
why does my heart pound with desire    
when a good looking young man    
shows me attention?    
     
i think it's because      
i take for granted      
that my man finds me sexy    
   
always needing    
the fucking approval of the world    
it's childish really    
     
so i won't suck the cock    
of the one that really packs one    
he fails to have the experience    
to carry such a weapon    
     
that would in the end    
bring me to my knees    
should i lose my husband    
     
     
     
     
     
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