DREAM OF SHAME

when i was three
i dreamt myself naked
on stage
before a great audience laughing
in the glare of star dust lights
 
i was horrified
 
no doubt the beginning
of a need to cover-up
 
thus
the birth of a lier
my soul and destiny
a terminating lotus bud
nocturnal pulse
a tarnished soul
shuddering in a cave
 
 
what i do
a veiled secret
 
am i despicable ?
being what i should not be
loving what i should not love
wanting what i should not want
and then i discovered you
disguised
 
will you come out
and be who you shouldn't be
but are
take what you shouldn't want
but crave
and love what you shouldn't love
but die without
 
im here
frightened and exposed
aghast and in love
waiting for you