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Therapy
Familiar couch
Familiar face
Her words fall out
I cannot trace
Does she stop and wonder
What's inside my head?
Or is it her job
To smile no matter what's said?
Too long I've felt
The exact same
It's not her fault
I am to blame
She says it's progress
It's part of the process
Good things take time
But I'm still a hot mess
I'm hiding it all
It's starting to hurt
You can't figure it out
I thought you were the expert
Too long I've felt
The exact same
I'm beginning to wonder
Why I bothered and came
Question after question
Getting placed on a shelf
How can you understand me
If I can't understand myself?
I appreciate the concern
I appreciate the care
But I don't need your support
I need repair
Too long I've felt
The exact same
When will we stop
This confusing game
Next week will come
Next week you'll say
It'll get better from here
It'll be okay
But what if Monday
Never comes around?
Will you talk to me then
When I'm under the ground?
Too long I've felt
The exact same
Take out your planner
Cross out my name
Familiar face
Her words fall out
I cannot trace
Does she stop and wonder
What's inside my head?
Or is it her job
To smile no matter what's said?
Too long I've felt
The exact same
It's not her fault
I am to blame
She says it's progress
It's part of the process
Good things take time
But I'm still a hot mess
I'm hiding it all
It's starting to hurt
You can't figure it out
I thought you were the expert
Too long I've felt
The exact same
I'm beginning to wonder
Why I bothered and came
Question after question
Getting placed on a shelf
How can you understand me
If I can't understand myself?
I appreciate the concern
I appreciate the care
But I don't need your support
I need repair
Too long I've felt
The exact same
When will we stop
This confusing game
Next week will come
Next week you'll say
It'll get better from here
It'll be okay
But what if Monday
Never comes around?
Will you talk to me then
When I'm under the ground?
Too long I've felt
The exact same
Take out your planner
Cross out my name
Published 28th Jul 2017
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28th Jul 2017 9:01am
This really captures a certain mindset, I feel the frustration that nothing's changing and the hope fading away.... good job <3
29th Jul 2017 5:45am
Anonymous
28th Jul 2017 7:55pm
good job! loved reading it. clear expression. captivating. forceful ending. love it!
and I can sympathize. when "help" doesn't help and you begin to wonder.
head up.
and I can sympathize. when "help" doesn't help and you begin to wonder.
head up.
29th Jul 2017 5:47am
Anonymous
29th Jul 2017 1:34am
Fairy.. i get this.. that smile, no matter what you spill.. and you wonder, are they even listening.. how could they be?? therapy is difficult enough, opening up secrets and sores.. and they call it progress.. and clinical process.. i'd rather they just, shoot straight.. never give up though, within yourself are the answers.. just gotta keep searching.. much respect..
Dave
Dave
29th Jul 2017 5:49am
It makes you question why you even open up at all, if you remain in the same place... I'll keep your words in mind and keep searching. Thank you for this Dave!
Anonymous
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