Inhabit Me

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You are haunting my thoughts, day and night
Every lyric in the songs you share with me
Agitated with every memory when you smiled at me
Distraught with each text
Roused with every chance to talk to you
Your words have inspired me to rise from my lethargy
Possibility is not just an empty promise
Love is not just a fantasy
Your wisdom and life-force inhabits my very soul
I let you ease my pain, my lifelessness
I let you in my brain, turned doubt into creed
I wore all of my scars for you, and you softened me
I became raw for you, primal flesh, authentically carnal
A part of you has grown in me
There are moments where I smile thinking of you happy
And others where I want to hurt you  
For making me feel this vulnerable, this alone
Restlessly scheming a plan to eliminate your man
I don’t ever want to think again
Because I imagine him touching you in my head
Devising a plan to cross the ocean to capture you
Conspiring with my inner demons and losing
I need your impressions on my scars
Your affection for my hopelessness
Your acceptance for my worth
Your whispers on my ego
And your body on my reflection
I have known brilliance and potential with you
You occupy me  
I have started a civil war with myself over you
Respectful man now merciless
Hardened from unyielding longing
Enervated and susceptible to wickedness
This desire has ruined me
I surrender to your honesty
Fractured and stubborn