Push

I hurt my friend
I hurt a friend
That person is hurting
Life is much easier
when you're constantly working
Grade school was so long ago anyway
I'm glad she's happy
I'm glad she's happy
Happily married I'm uninvited
Not that I mind being slowly forgotten
Not that I meant any more than
Sitting on the porch steps that were rotting
Playing in the park with the swings that were broken
And talking
About our dreams and dirty secrets
Playing truth or dare in different sequence
I wanted to shout don't let go
But you looked so happy on your own
I wanted to yell hold my hand
I'm knee deep in pain I don't understand
I hope you are happy
I hope you are happy
I love you very much
And I cherish your memory
I'm living well
Thank you for asking
I love you very much
Even if you don't remember me.
And yeah, maybe I feel alone
I feel like the ones I love
Love leaving on their own
And sometimes I hate watching t.v.
Where everyone seems to have
more friends than me
Am I alone even in this feeling?
I push
And push
And they don't push back.