Broken mind mentality

 

Falling through an endless black-hole that I think is my universe.
It exists only inside my head full of holes
And it hollows my soul
And it eats away at a part of me from the inside.
I am left to fall in reverse.


Losing sight of all that I knew;
The truth I knew, to be so true.
As thoughts ricochet inside my brain, black paint is thrown onto my art,
Creating holes inside my head and tearing me apart.
Lost in spaces, in between, reality and darkness dreams.
So lost to everything they claimed to be unique to me;
I need to escape from this broken mind mentality.


What I have is all mine but none of it works;
My body jerks and shakes and breaks and I hurt.
When all I need is a clear path forward, not back,
All I have is misty eyes and all I feel is panic attacks.


So scared of all that never was,
Or what could be, if I do nothing,
Or do something, or make a choice;
I will only destroy my eternal voice.
The vocal chords will be cut,
By never mind, regrets and but,
I never meant to say that, please take it back.
I am losing the last morsels of strength that I ever had
And I am oh, so sad.
I will disappear into this black-hole,
That drags me away from everybody that I know.


When all is gone and my star goes out,
I will remain in doubt and inside out;
What hope is there for me now?


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