Misapprehension of Merriment

Romantic you were, we shared the best of times
I couldn’t believe my luck until six months down the line
You placed on me a slap, I began to cry
Then you did too and then I questioned why
Was it my fault, was I winding you up
I made you a coffee in your favourite cup
Time went by and everything was swell
Except for the time that you punched me, ring a bell
In the red corner a man much bigger than me
In the blue, delicacy and fear and that you could see
I thought I would die when your fingers grasped my throat
When I didn’t wear makeup as I was told not to gloat
Please don’t go, I’m sorry, I will change
Why are you like this Josh? Do you love me? I am pained
And through a year and six months the battle continued
In which you consistently told me I had the situation misconstrued
You didn’t want to hit me, I just made you mad
What did I ever do that hurt you so bad?
I arrived home on time, I didn’t see my friends
I followed all of your rules so our relationship wouldn’t end
I finally broke free, my liberator rescued my being
She helped me see all the things I hadn’t been seeing
She burst through the door as you swung with a knife
And if it wasn’t for her you would have ended my life
You took me through the courts where I stood fragile
I was told I was lying and the flashbacks, they piled
It felt like an eternity in my head
And at one point I assumed I would be better off dead
But I thank you for the experience for now I stand tall
I’ll never let anyone make me feel so small
I don’t wear scarves or heaps of foundation
To cover up marks from your frustration
I am now a woman with a sense of freedom
I AM A QUEEN AND YOU CANNOT ENTER MY KINGDOM
I SURVIVED YOUR DEMONS, YOU DIDN’T NOT WIN
KARMA WILL PROTECT ME, YOU CARRY NOTHING BUT SIN