Empty

You're right here by my side
Not touching, no
And not actually there
But I feel you
And I don't like what I feel
You're a shell of what I love
Barely a whisper of the ferocity I once felt
We were strong and resilient to anything
To everything
But miles and time
So as I lie beside you
Weeping in silence
Your warm body is only inches away
I'm fearful to reach out to only get slapped away
The current was too strong and washed it all away
And no matter how fast I swim and paddle and heave and ho
The white wall crashes down on me over and over and over again
Never seeming to reach the peak and fall to the other side of what was
I'm stuck in this place at arm's length
You won't reel me in and you won't release me back
I'm so empty
Yet full