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Behind These Closed Doors.
You tried to mold me, change me
adjust me in a way that fits your best interest.
That didn't work.
So you got angry,
Controlling.
Isolated me with fights, arguments
and intimidation.
" You are nothing without me"
" I make you whole "
" You had no one til i came in the picture"
I believed you.
And piece by piece,
day by day,
month by month,
year by year,
you ripped every piece of me apart
until I couldn't even recognize the women
standing in front of the mirror.
I now hate the mirror.
I am ugly and worthless.
I see the rot you put inside me
come through like flesh eating parasites.
Your a leach draining the life out of me.
I am stuck in the middle of a current
I can't seem to get out of.
Fighting to break free
only makes it worse.
I can't breathe.
I let the current take me so far
I can't see the shore.
No matter how many people try
to come to my rescue,
I've come so accustomed to lost
this cold water has become home.
I am afraid to let go.
The truth behind these closed doors.
adjust me in a way that fits your best interest.
That didn't work.
So you got angry,
Controlling.
Isolated me with fights, arguments
and intimidation.
" You are nothing without me"
" I make you whole "
" You had no one til i came in the picture"
I believed you.
And piece by piece,
day by day,
month by month,
year by year,
you ripped every piece of me apart
until I couldn't even recognize the women
standing in front of the mirror.
I now hate the mirror.
I am ugly and worthless.
I see the rot you put inside me
come through like flesh eating parasites.
Your a leach draining the life out of me.
I am stuck in the middle of a current
I can't seem to get out of.
Fighting to break free
only makes it worse.
I can't breathe.
I let the current take me so far
I can't see the shore.
No matter how many people try
to come to my rescue,
I've come so accustomed to lost
this cold water has become home.
I am afraid to let go.
The truth behind these closed doors.
Published 28th Jun 2017
| Edited 6th Jul 2017
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Anonymous
28th Jun 2017 2:49am
Welcome to DU OS!! This is such a great felt ink.....it was hard for me to read.......been thru this myself.....I promise though you're not worthless......they like us to feel that way so they can justify their actions......so we think we're weak and defenseless........that's how they like us.......look back into that mirror and smile at the beautiful woman you outside and inside.......everyday you will change back to the woman you're meant to be.......be patient with you.get thur each and every emotion as they come........pile luv & hugs xo :)
Agree with my purple friend Flower here. If someone tells you something so much, you start to believe it, whether that be good or bad. But as Flower says, you can be anyone you wish to be. The mirror need not be your enemy but your inspiration to go on & achieve a better existence for yourself. Thank you for telling us of your pain. This is one step on the road to recovery for you. A problem aired is a problem shared. We will help you wherever possible. Welcome.
Purple. x -)
Purple. x -)
