Dear, uncontrollable force                signed,  disparaging philophobic

The door is open    
I see it, okay?    
Why oh why do you continue to pull me?    
Who are you really?    
Traction burning from my feet    
Stubbornness subordinate to your damned disease  
Creative mind you see    
Not equipped to leave    
Suffering is something I need    
It's my identity    
Why fucking question me?    
Leave me be!    
That tenacious grasp does nothing    
But exasperate me!    
Can't you see?    
My heart is enraptured in contradictory!    
I don't need to follow you    
I'll remain in the corner and live happily through you!    
So sip that white youthberry tea    
I would give all my money    
To watch an obscene amount of leeches    
Tediously suck the life out of me!