Girl vs Half a Man

Breathing, but wishing only to scream,
As I lie awake in this cruel, endless dream.
The weight of all he bears, crushing my heart,
Smothering my every chance at a redeeming start.
Opening up just to feel that his intentions were austere,
Living in constant edge, because his second persona is near.
Standing forcefully as a family, in front of eyes that
judge,
Gathering broken pieces, to push past this grudge.
Trying soley to give a change of normalcy in this,
But instead he aims blindly, resulting in an obvious miss.
Holding it all together, so they’ll do the same,
But I’m only a kid, so who’s to blame?
Wanting only to crack this layer of cement,
That now protects from ever being hurt by his intent.
Opening up my soul with extremity and smile,
I brainwashed myself into believing it’d all be worth -
while.
Now too afraid to ever be hurt again,
As a girl frequently sizes up to a “man”.
Clanking, as these chains scratch the ground behind me,
Preventing my soul from being free.
Now staring at all my pain, I let him cause,
As I take a deep “breath” and pause….
Wishing only to scream,
As I am forced to lie awake in this pathetic excuse of a
dream.