I wonder

I wonder if she notices me.
I wonder if she notices the way I look at her.
I wonder if she can hear my heart pound when our hands touch.
I wonder if she thinks it's silly,
To have another girl,
Another female,
Fall in love with her.
I can't help the way I feel.
Even though I want to shove my feelings down a hole and bury them.
I want her to be mine,
And I want to be hers.
My heart breaks when I see her,
Talking to a boy.
And when she talks about him,
I feel as if I can't breathe.
I want to break down in tears,
Because I know she'll never feel the same way towards me.
A girl like me.
A girl.
I shouldn't feel this way.
I hate this.
I hate being in love with someone,
I can never call mine.
The pain is almost unbearable.
I wish I was numb,
So maybe,
I wouldn't have to feel anymore.