Social Anxiety: The know it all.

I have social anxiety.
Which means so much more
Than being shy around others.
Which means so much more
Than the shit Tumblr makes it.
I have social anxiety,
Which means that my head starts spinning each and every time I see people.
Which means my heart starts racing at the pure thought of leaving my house and being around others...
This is the reason I haven't left my house in 2 weeks.
I feel sick at parties that my friends drag me to.
I do hate speaking out.
In fact,
I wish there were days where I could just shut every one out and not have to speak.
It's not cute.
What's so cute about fainting in public because in felt to crowded?
It's not funny,
Try and laugh when you avoid going out because you think everyone will judge and hate you.
Stop the romanticized views on Social anxiety.
Because it's hell to deal with.