Destined for Darkness

There's no doubt that faith will not save me from my destiny  
All paths in front of me lead to the edge of my reality  
Where the drop off falls into darkness where my soul will drowned  
Where drops of sadness spilled a cursed howling guttural sound  
Raging from my throat singing a song of agony raping my naked soul  
Until I have no resistance or concern for the reaping still to come  
When everything I am melts to nothingness as I become undone  
So if it was your intention Lord to die so my retched soul could live  
If your resurrection had anything to do with my will to survive  
You wasted your time hanging around on that wooden cross  
Do me a favor and tell your mom, "I'm sorry for her loss"  
I'd rather not live in a perpetual state of fear for death's impending touch  
While life is now nothing more to me than a fatalistic crutch  
Holding up the inevitable end that will send my burning soul to Hell  
Because I know too much to believe I stood a chance since the first time that I fell