A Souls Resurrection

Somewhere at some point during your exsistance.
Your soul died and you've coped with this reality as if it was written,
To forever lay in a dismal solitude.
To never be touched by the warmth of love,
And so you've developed this attitude.

Started to push and shove anyone who was brave and dared to get close.
Afraid of rejection, irratated by disappoint;
You chased away the ones who cared when you needed them the most.

Soul on ice, survival instincts tell you to think twice and worry about self,
Because apparently if you dont then theres no one else;
Who will nurture your heart and cherish its exsistance.
Touch your soul and understand what's imprinted.

The truth behind the mask reveals what's real.
Someone who want's to do more than live but finally feel,
What true love has to offer and not these standby emotions.

Dealing with another who's gradually coasting.
Trying not to be that notch on the belt thats used for boasting.
Hoping they can fathom the notion that you weren't made in Gods reflection so your not perfect.
But you were made in his likeness and strive for it far from worthless.

But these thoughts seem to fade,
Your soul remains in darkness.
Nothing can spark this once brilliant flame that use to be your aura,
Your left with so many questions.
You must understand, a souls ressurection is birthed with imperfections.

No point in trying to change what doesn't need changing,
Just except it.
Take heed to the lessons of the ones who came before you and learned to late.
Close your eyes open your mind and witness your fate.

Thoughs who change themselves with false intentions only bring false blessings.
That which resides in darkness always comes to light,
You cant fight it.
Eventually patience and tolorance will start colliding where understanding and trust were once united.
It's because of this false unity that nations are divided.

Kings and Queens reducing themselves to peasents because they dont no the meaning of honesty.
It's this very quality that builds the foundation to your dynasty.
It is said you can bring a horse to water but cant make him drink.
Well, you can influence a persons behavior but cant change the way they think.

Don't torture yourself with false convictions,
That voice in your head tried to warn you but you didnt listen.
Now you're here wishing and reminscing on the days you were happy and how you got in this position.

But dont take the full blame its not your fault their verity was shrouded in a blanket imprisionment.
Now the truth is set free with no restraints or hope of apprehending it.
Still, your vision is blured;
Fighting an up hill battle with no chance of ever winning it.

Optimism is for the wishful,
But you seek something more tangible.
Keep finding yourself in the same predicument.
Going back to what you're use to and that's understandable;
But how you expect to elevate pass mediocure when you allow yourself to remain stagnated?

We're the only creation of Allah's (swt) with free will.
Your path is laid before you.
Yet you hesitated.
I'm not understanding the facination.
Thoughts without action only cause pre-mental  ejaculation;
Energy wasted.

High expectations caters to your fantasies, because the realization to your reality is less demanding.
It's in our nature to want more than what we can handle.
When all we really wanted was a sample.
Forgiveness is forgiven for we know not what we ask for.
Captivated by mental masturbation.
It's lust you employer.

What's instore for a heart that doesn't receive love no more?
What's left for eyes that can't cry tears that pour?
When your done with the stress and learned your lessons.
Emerge from the flames,
A souls ressurection.