The cycles

Walls are closing in
Anxiety crippling me
Im so fucking sad
Helplessly in bed with dread
I wish i was fucking dead

Tormenting myself
Hurtful thoughts invade my head
Why am i alive
Why do i bother to fight
What is the point anymore

Falling to the floor
Laying helpless in demise
I contemplate life
Soft subtle cries come to end
I stand up and dry the tears

Breathing now normal
Somehow i have calmed myself
A shift in my mood
I prefer the happiness
But for how long will it last

Life is fucking great
Im so glad to be alive
Hope surrounds me now
I love watching the sunrise
I love watching the sunset

Walking carelessly
Im smiling at everything
Nothing can hurt me
I am on an adventure
I love being with nature

Those birds are so loud
I could fucking kill them all
I hate everything
Why are they fucking smiling
Do i look fucking funny

Face is getting red
Adrenaline is pumping
Fuck i am pissed off
For no apparent reason
How long will this madness last

Running through the woods
Im a wild lion hunting
Catch me if you can
From dawn till dusk i have run
Now back to reality

I must go to bed
I have work in the morning
Panic fills my head
Thoughts of failure now
And the sick cycle repeats