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Alone for eternity
The offering of the juicy red heart shoots daggers in my ice cold chest.
Oh how you offer me the best.
See my heart's soaked in green , moldy sticky green melting around my heart .
Seeping out my ribs , I'm trying to drench it .
Running , pumping , running , pumping.
It won't empty and let me re colour.
My heat won't melt my heart back soft.
The ice refuses to leave me.
As does the green sticky mould that sickens me.
.
Stupid girl , you ever think your heart can be red again?
Stupid girl, you became the monsters in your head! You let them win!
So they took everything! Everything!
They will do it again.
Try not to complain.
.
Self ignorance torture.
Mindless confusion.
Love torn arms.
Soul sent far.
Goodbye to hearts , love and paper fools.
.
A world that demands so much!
What's love without purpose?
What's love without hope?
What's love if it's not right?
.
What's love if we are hurting?
What's love if you hate me?
What's love if it wasn't real?
What's love if i didn't try?
.
Location
Of
Venomous
Evolution
.
Love stains the brain.
So take your heart i can think of things more precious.. than another silly heart.
Take mine too , out my chest , lock it down beneath the sea. Where my soul fly's free.
.
It's time to say goodbye.
It's time to say hello.
.
Wasted time of all these fellows.
Wasted love .
Wasted hope.
Wasted breathe.
.
Wasted , ironic for a drunk.
Taste your whiskey.
Devil's whiskey chiming the mind.
Concurring the demons seeped inside.
.
Missing i refuse to do.
As much as i fucking miss you.
Missing is just dreaming.
Dreaming is just false believing.
.
Who i dreamed to be.
Who i dreamed to love.
Who i concurred to be.
.
Who is who when toot toot they have lost all.
.
Falling small , down on my knees.
Let the lord take his child.
Cuddle me warm.
Cuddle me warm.
Lord hold me close , take me far away.
Can't you just take my soul? Take me! Take me to heaven's gate! Lord put right my mistakes, i have no power , i have no fight , I'm just a stupid girl who can't do it right.
.
Throwing up gooey green sick , blobs of purple sticky wickey yellow bits.
.
I see you.
I see them .
I see me.
.
Now i see the sea.
Tie a weight around my feet .
One ... Two ...Three.
Jump! SPLASH !
Bubbling down as i go , air flying free into bubbles around me , hair flying to the sky , eyes fading in the sounds catching me by surprise , badussshhh i lay on the sea bed floor ... Stroking my hands and legs up and down I create a sand angel, sea bed bound.
.
I refuse to remove this weight.
I refuse to love for another regret!
I refuse to live so tortured!
.
Goodbye to love and the thought of any son's and daughter's.
Love , family , won't cut it for me .
Belonging alone is all i have known.
.
It's all i will ever be.
For eternity.
.
Nothing is enough anymore and i don't know why. Maybe it's my tired crumbled mind?
.
None of it matters now , i have studying to do. A path to set aside .
Alone.
.
Oh how you offer me the best.
See my heart's soaked in green , moldy sticky green melting around my heart .
Seeping out my ribs , I'm trying to drench it .
Running , pumping , running , pumping.
It won't empty and let me re colour.
My heat won't melt my heart back soft.
The ice refuses to leave me.
As does the green sticky mould that sickens me.
.
Stupid girl , you ever think your heart can be red again?
Stupid girl, you became the monsters in your head! You let them win!
So they took everything! Everything!
They will do it again.
Try not to complain.
.
Self ignorance torture.
Mindless confusion.
Love torn arms.
Soul sent far.
Goodbye to hearts , love and paper fools.
.
A world that demands so much!
What's love without purpose?
What's love without hope?
What's love if it's not right?
.
What's love if we are hurting?
What's love if you hate me?
What's love if it wasn't real?
What's love if i didn't try?
.
Location
Of
Venomous
Evolution
.
Love stains the brain.
So take your heart i can think of things more precious.. than another silly heart.
Take mine too , out my chest , lock it down beneath the sea. Where my soul fly's free.
.
It's time to say goodbye.
It's time to say hello.
.
Wasted time of all these fellows.
Wasted love .
Wasted hope.
Wasted breathe.
.
Wasted , ironic for a drunk.
Taste your whiskey.
Devil's whiskey chiming the mind.
Concurring the demons seeped inside.
.
Missing i refuse to do.
As much as i fucking miss you.
Missing is just dreaming.
Dreaming is just false believing.
.
Who i dreamed to be.
Who i dreamed to love.
Who i concurred to be.
.
Who is who when toot toot they have lost all.
.
Falling small , down on my knees.
Let the lord take his child.
Cuddle me warm.
Cuddle me warm.
Lord hold me close , take me far away.
Can't you just take my soul? Take me! Take me to heaven's gate! Lord put right my mistakes, i have no power , i have no fight , I'm just a stupid girl who can't do it right.
.
Throwing up gooey green sick , blobs of purple sticky wickey yellow bits.
.
I see you.
I see them .
I see me.
.
Now i see the sea.
Tie a weight around my feet .
One ... Two ...Three.
Jump! SPLASH !
Bubbling down as i go , air flying free into bubbles around me , hair flying to the sky , eyes fading in the sounds catching me by surprise , badussshhh i lay on the sea bed floor ... Stroking my hands and legs up and down I create a sand angel, sea bed bound.
.
I refuse to remove this weight.
I refuse to love for another regret!
I refuse to live so tortured!
.
Goodbye to love and the thought of any son's and daughter's.
Love , family , won't cut it for me .
Belonging alone is all i have known.
.
It's all i will ever be.
For eternity.
.
Nothing is enough anymore and i don't know why. Maybe it's my tired crumbled mind?
.
None of it matters now , i have studying to do. A path to set aside .
Alone.
.
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