Afraid

 
I wouldn't say I'm living
not anymore.
It feels like I am walking through
a life that is not my own.
Nothing feels the same.
My bed is cold on both sides now.
The blankets don't keep me warm.
The dark isn't so scary.
I was only afraid of the dark
because you told me
I should be.
Now that you're gone.
The shadows seem welcoming.
I no longer shut my eyes in hopes
that when I open them I see light.
Now the dark is my safe haven.
I was only afraid of the dark
because you told me
I had to be.
You told me the dark was for demons
Now we share intimate company.
I was only afraid because
you told me I should be.
You never told me that the dark
is where broken things hide.
You never told me that after you left
the dark would be the only thing
that I see.
You never told me that  it was
safe in the dark.
That in the dark you can't be hurt.
I was only afraid of the dark
because
you
were.