Peace

I was just a little girl when you decided to hate me
Why Mother,
        Is it because you feared me?
I was too skinny
I was too pretty.
I had a mind of my own.
And you wanted absolute control.
Years passed, and I kept loving you
I kept hoping you would see it too.
But you used it to be cruel.
Time's moved on and I have a son.
Foolish of me to believe you could love.
Oh yes you acted like the best grandma,
Little did I know you were planning to see me fall.
To take away my life's purpose.
When I already had a son I miss
I already felt like my heart was split in two
And bitterness made it worse with you
Now you took my only baby
Why? So you could start over maybe?
Or so you and your wife could together raise
My heart causes me every night to weep.
This pain inside is so deep
But you continue to kill me
Driving the knife in further and further
Taking away my son from his true mother
Saying I'm on drugs and have been in jail.
Saying all you can think of to make me fail.
Little did you know I would rise
Above everything and see the beauty in every sunrise
Waiting for the day to see my demise?
But karma will get you for all your lies.
I promise I won't quit trying.
Even through all my crying.
Even through all your lying.
I will make it and bring him home.
All your days you will roam
Trying to find your heart and your home.
You forget the bitterness needs to go.
At that most I know.
Try to smile, lose your control.
Even with all the pain, I'll keep praying.
And my love, I'll keep saying
All the prayers for you to find your way.
But for your sins I know you'll pay
Not through me, but through Him above.
I will too, because I forgot how to love.
I forgot how to Love as He does over our heads.
I pray your control you will finally release.
And in the end, you will find your peace.