Autophobia

Ever since my memory could implement



I had been damned by the element of



A chronic case of bleak self loathe



As demonic whispers trail behind me





Casting opinions derived from self fear



To create fear as well as supreme hatred



Of its creator, stimulating my cerebellum



Driving my thoughts to shocking venues





Teaching me to hate the very person that I am



As softly I crooned in silence to myself



'I never wanted for this to happen.'



'I had never wished for hate



To devour my integrity.'





Yet it transformed my dreams in to nightmares



Shadowing my innate ability to project myself



It has thrusted me into a scenery of destruction



Refusing to cease its latch on the core of my life





And now my body has been swamped by an ocean



Of despicable promises and gruesome macabre oaths



My only request is to be free of this incarceration



Of autophobia before I am driven to the edge of suicide