spring sun

tried exploring some new words    
without knowing where to search    
tried to flee from common thoughts    
feeding a far stranger urge    
     
pleading for an innersight    
dumb enough to fail again    
blinded by misguiding lights    
doubts may guess the worlds I can    
     
sense by using words to trace    
what is happ'ning, undefined    
within widened inner space    
what seems linked but wrongly signed    
     
staying lost in that dark maze    
I believed - deceived to leave    
just deluding deeper ways    
blazing traps of no relieve    
     
'though I'm sure there must be doors    
windows, slots or some weird leaks    
holes or mirrors - I'm not sure    
all is fading, getting bleak    
     
tripping through abstracted dreams    
trapped in concrete ways to be    
a significance that seems    
as a what no one can see    
     
always next to ways of doom    
blessed to outcarnate each thought    
(where) ambiguities do bloom    
by exploring some new words    
     
simply gained experience      
concrete ray out of the pun    
writing by coincidense    
I sprang out into the sun    
     
(led by metacausal chance)