I wonder.....don't you.

I wonder where she goes when she's not here with me.
Where is she when her needs are not of me.
What Is it that keeps her away.
Is it the guilt of what we share that keeps her away.
Our dirty secrets of what we really want and do.
Or is it that the desperation for me isn't overwhelming enough for her to visit me again just yet.
What is it. Tell me what it is.
Tell me fair lady what keeps you away but then suddenly brings you back for more of me.
Come back and tell me please. Better still come back and be with me.