WHAT IF?

What if....
I wanted to leave this world? Leave this past behind and start a new?
What if....
I didnt wanna be around people who stare at me cause they know im a disgrace
What if...
I wanted to put my headphones im and forget the world even existed?
What if.....
I didnt wanna cry every single night?
What if...
I didnt want to fight me demons?
What if....
Im tired of crying over her and want the pain to stop?
What if.....
I could finally smile with out being brought down.
What if.....
I wanted to be with my grandma in heaven?

What if....
Im tired of thinking too deep?
What if....
She actually talks to me and not hide her tears from me?
What if....
She doesnt love me?
What if....
Its all a lie?
Theres a lot of what if's in the world. But what if.....
What if i wanted to die?
What if i wanted to take my own life?
Would anyone even notice?
What if......
Just
What
If...