Silent Love

Sometimes I invent confidence in an attempt to appear stoic
and be near you
        
the way I do now      
while you sit with him      
without smiling and deep in thought

I watch him play the game, the mating ritual
       kissing you for show and tell,    
                  another conquest

You will fuck him tonight although he will never see how beautiful you truly are
        your soft neck, your piercing eyes
     or the taste of your skin

I loath myself
I will never have the courage to tell you  that he doesn't deserve you
  
Im not sure when you stopped caring about that shit anyway
    
     I miss your touch
          everyday

I am alone in this crowded room.