Used Up

You used me like a toy and a punching bag.
I took it all like the good girl I used to be.
All the while I was waving my white flag

As surrender, but you wanted to be set free
From your pent up anger, frustration and self-doubt.
You never cared about my feelings or about me.

We were a long kept secret, never aired out
For everybody to see, notice and there
Was nothing left to be speculated about.

I never wanted to hear, see or care
About what others thought and saw but
Rumors got around. We were never the right pair

From the very beginning. I was in a rut
And in a hellhole from the moment we met.
I knew that my intuition and all of my gut

Feelings were right about you, but yet
You were treating every other girl the same way.
You never learned your lesson until you lost the bet.

I could no longer allow you to mess up and fray
My edges. I was losing the girl who was always
Happy and smiling. I could no longer let you play

Me. I should not have got caught in your maze.
You were too worried about your life and lies.
It turns out it was nothing but a phase

For you. I had to learn how to become wise
And stronger because of all of that shit you
Put me through. I had to open up my eyes

And had to realize who you really were. To
Each his own, but I had to believe my own truths
And to stop trusting your reasons why you flew.