From love to not

Three words at the top of my mind.  
   
My heart was hurt and my head was numb  
   
Instead of those words I turned unkind.  
   
I was my old self, once again I was dumb.  
   
Like always I spoke without a second to think.  
   
I used to whisper with my hands on your hips.  
   
I knew from happiness to despair I would sink.  
   
I had all the right words at the edge of my lips.  
   
But I chose to say something else instead.  
   
You have a lot of reasons to be mad.  
   
I hope all of these doubts are just in my head.  
   
But I think we both know you are truly sad.