Home?

 

I'm standing in a place I call home but sometimes I feel so torn,
don't feel right it's almost like a steal windpipe in my back,
go ahead an tell me you don't feel that but i'm halfway here an i'm halfway there and sometimes I swear it's like they just don't care,
you might as well stick me in a cage with a wild animal and tell me it's where I belong because  all my life that's where i've been told that I'd get along,
I stand up but I sit back down cuz I just don't like the sound that I hear in the background so I turn back around,
keep my mouth closed and try not to make a sound, while I,
cry myself to sleep tonight cuz I'd like you to think that it's all alright even if it's not,
let's be honest my hearts tied up in a knot and you're not the equivalent of what's not,
so when I smile and I nod you think i'm alright even when i'm not,
guess your not as good at reading through me as you thought,
you only see what I allow you to see and sometimes that means not the real me,
Yes I let you in, put down my wall pretty close to it all but not to the point where you can claim that there ain't no wall,
still scared cuz I, don't wanna lose it all,

my heads not speaking it's my heart and right now it's bleeding out like an ark that's been attacked by a shark,
can't explain the feeling unless it's lyrically,
I don't know but it don't hurt me,
It's always been there for me it's where I go when I need to release without going back to,
letting the eyes cry dry but the wrists cry  why!
you don't gotta listen to what I say just know that I hurt just about everyday,
but i'm afraid of telling you just why so that's when I turn on the beat and I let it overtake me,
Don't filter what I write man I swear I could go all night!
during the day my eyes are dry,
but behind it all my hearts screaming out why an inside there's a waterfall,
it's streaming and it's screaming, and it's dreaming,
please i'm sorry I swear I'm not that bad,
stop looking at me like i'm a heathen!,
i'm trying but i'm dying ,
pick me back up and know that i'm doing the best that I know how to do,
i only wish I could be just like you,


but i'm not, i'm me,
I don't expect you to understand don't even try you'll just waste your time,
can't nobody claim to know the full real me because she's protected of what might be,
what people might see and what they might flea,




so i'm sorry if you don't like me,
an i'm sorry i'm not the number one go to and be just like me,
one day I hope you all like me,
but never wanna be just like me,
so here's my song put it on a track it it might sound outta wack,
but some people seem to like that,
but that's not why I write now it ain't even like that,
just listen carefully hear me lyrically, fearlessly, imperiously, but don't for see me,
to be something I'm not,
before you judge me go ahead and try to copperhead me,
what you say won't offend me,
it will simply transform me,
to be something I was told I never could be,
because i'm not a piece of trash you can just throw away when you want, and I am not what you told me I should be,
I just simply am me!
I show less and I become a mess,
I try my best but yet it doesn't seem to be enough,
so when I let it out,
this is me trying to reach out,
please don't leave me lying here in my own doubt,
I need your help,
please i'm begging you to help pull me out,